I've been trying to think of a good reason why I haven't written on here lately. And when I say "lately", I mean the last few years! I say it is a time thing, but lots of people are busy. We're all busy. But blogging is something I really love to do. Why don't I make time for it? I found my answer!
Tonight I am alone. Alone. Aaaaaahhh!!! The kids were in bed by about 7:30 and Joel is out spending some time with friends. It is quiet. I'm just picking up the tornado that ripped through the house. Drinking some good coffee. Some good tunes (mumford and sons via pandora!!) are quietly playing in the background. I'm really not doing anything important, but I can't tell you how much this kind of solitude just FEEDS my soul. The problem is that I am rarely alone. I'm an introvert and no matter how much I fight it, I am recharged by solitude. And the only time I have any motivation to write is when I have been recharged by this precious time alone. Which..pretty much happens once in a blue moon. And taking a shower does not count.
Seriously, I'm not complaining. I love my life. We have such rich and true relationships with friends and family. I couldn't ask for more. We're just in the thick of it and a dull moment never happens...and I'm finding that this introverted soul can suffer in this environment of constant everything.
I don't need a vacation...I just need solitude. I would pay the big bucks for more of this. I would even love a drive in my car alone once in a while. Not sure it will happen too often, but I'm just saying what this girl needs. Someday....;)
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This line, I don't need a vacation...I just need solitude," resonated with me HUGE. I am impressed how you not only manage, but access some kind of "alternative fuel" to thrive in the fast paced life you have right now. Plugged into God with "always enough" of His provision. (one of the reasons you lived on a street called Providence, maybe?!) There WILL come days of more solitude; until then there will be "always enough and ever more!" ...just don't shut down the blog due to infrequent uses; I would be sad and you have so much to offer. Love you.
Oh-- and I need not only solitude, I need organization and those two are a hard twosome to accommodate.Thankfully you manage so much better in chaotic situation than I do...Hooray for that.
SO thankful that you got some YOU time. I totally understand that need and love it when I have it too.
I've always been an extrovert until I became a mom. Now I crave time with just me, I can't even imagine if I was an introvert to begin with. My motto these days has been a combination of "this too shall pass" and "he never gives us more than we can handle". Praying you find blessing in the constant companionship until you get some more alone time :-)
You rock my socks Amy!!! Hope you got some good sleep after a recharging time...with coffee;-) Let's combine our chaos sometime SOON! Let me know when is good for you.
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